sa saliw ng You are for me - Kari Jobe :)
made a way for the blind to stop walking
made a way for the deaf to stop searching
made a way for the lame to stop shouting in the streets
you made a way for me to stop surviving.
made a way for me to see you in the midst of darkness
made a way for me to hear you, while the world is loud
made a way for me to come to you, even if i can’t walk.
made a way for me to start living.
made a way for me to stop seeking
made a way for me to stop blocking all the sounds around me
made a way for me to stop breaking my knees and legs for senseless walks and rushes of life.
made a way for me to stop. and just look to You.
and just look at You..
You are beautiful
You are wonderful
You are everything my eyes cannot give justice in describing
That i don’t need to. that i just need to really see You.
and let my eyes stay there.
on Your compassionate eyes.
on that forgiving smile
on that tear that’s falling.
realizing that. that tear is for me.
You are gentle.
You are the ears that listen to me, when i am senseless.
You are the words that speak to me only when i let you.
and whie im asking you a million things about the tragedy of my life,
all You ever have are three words for me.
all i need to know.
all i need to know is what You always say.
“I love you.”
You are healer.
You carry me when I can’t get up from my own fall.
You’ve never really left me. I realize that, when i give up on You,
You carry me when I don’t want to walk with You anymore.
my heart is as fragile as the person i see in the mirror.
my yearnings are only for the senseless things in life, yet i still do. look for them.
my cries are for myself, my tears never leave me even in my bed.
and my life is as empty as my words.
But You see me.
You hear me. You listen to me.
You carry me. You heal me.
You love me.
You love me.
my heart is as precious as the sight of Your Son on that cross.
that You shed tears, i broke your heart when i said, “No” to You.
but You still did. You still showed me how You loved me.
and You didn’t just say “I love You” from above.
You didn’t just send an angel or a dove.
“For unto us a child is born”
You gave Your Son.
You gave Your Son.
so He could be there for me.
So i could have a tangible object to see that Someone REALLY really really loves me.
so i could understand what love is.
so i could finally receive it. even if i don’t deserve it.
so i could know it. so i could see it.
so i could see that it’s You.
my yearnings are what You look for.
even the simplest requests i have, You make sure i deight in them to see You.
not in them. but to see You.
the person i would wish for, the job i would prefer,
the future that i am obsessed with, but in truth, i’m just really afraid of.
the dreams that i buried.
all of them are noted by You.
so i could know Who gives them
so i could know why my heart searches for these things
so i could know they aren’t really what will make my life full.
so i could know that it’s only You that i need..
so i could know You.
my cries are in Your heart.
no one listens to my brokeness and failures, and my regrets but me.
i am a mistake waiting to happen, i am a tragedy waiting for my moment of glory.
but that’s how You don’t see me.
that’s nt how You see me.
for You i am a child.
for You i can be naked. i can be broken. i can be who i really am.
just this. just a nobody. just no one.
but for You i am someone.
someone You can look at in the morning before waking up and make You smile.
someone You can enjoy the showers of rain with, when no one else is there.
someone You can dance with when i don’t have a partner.
someone You can hold tightly in Your arms when I’m sleeping.
i am someone, Lord.
But You made me a son. a daughter.
You made me special.
for the first time in my life, i know i am worth something.
But I know I am not worth Your love
I am not worth Your Son.
I am not worth of anything but death.
but You made me worth Your life.
Your eternal life.
You are I AM.
You are all there is for me that i will need.